hey there!

ok, ok.  once again, the old "it's been forever" post.  I really would like to document our first (and many more) year of marriage.  first to go is the name... but trying to come up with a blog name... how do you do it?!  I'll be playing around a little bit and changing things up. and blogging.  I promise I'll be doing that.

cheers friends!

lately

lately, i've been on. the. go.  

but i've been trying extra hard to slow down and enjoy the small joys of spring before they're long gone. 

one of my favorites is sitting on a sunny patio with my main man.

my mom is in the wedding business, and this weekend's wedding has a candy buffet so we have TONS of candy in our house.  major test of will power!  but i love these colors. and jelly belly's bring back so many memories of my brother when we were growing up. 

These sweet flowers are springing up all over our garden!  I really love seeing their color after a dull winter.

i'm shopping for wedding invitations!!!  not exactly an enjoyment. but i love looking at all of the different fonts and i love paper. weird? maybe... 

spring break from my phone

 a day on ocracoke island

//beer///light houses//ferry rides//bike rides//

 my mom insists on annual easter egg hunts//watching sunsets with my squeeze

family time on the beach//sunsets from our balcony

what happens at pops...//pop himself//crawfish//margs!

over the past year and a half both of my brothers moved to the Outer Banks in North Carolina.  we grew up vacationing there so it's like a second home to us.  having a reason to visit the beach frequently isn't the worst position a girl could be in.
spring break couldn't have come at a better time.  school is really picking up, and i was missing time with my family.  my parents, trevin and i packed up and spent a blustery week in the OBX. (insert jumping up and down)

friday letters

dear spring break, thanks for showing up finally!  i wish you could stick around longer (long enough to actually warm up) but i guess i should get this semester over with, huh?
speaking of the semester...
dear school, i'm so tired of you and your shenanigans.
dear family, i love you. i'm so thankful for the time we had together this week. playing on the beach, and our annual easter egg hunt were the highlights of the trip. oh, and taco night.  it's always a highlight. the next time we'll be all together is for my wedding!!! eek!
dear derriere, sorry about the road tripping that happened this week.  i wish you would stop falling asleep though.  thats just weird.
dear Pop's resturant, your fried pickles. are. da. bomb. which brings me to...
dear working out, it's just you and me now, pal.  no exceptions.   i've got a wedding dress to wear this summer!
dear exam.... i'm going to kick your little tush this next week. just wait and see!

lately: my heart.

 i stumbled across this song one night when it was just what i needed, and i've been listening to it on repeat, and thinking through the lyrics since then.  with un finished wedding plans, school pressing in on me in all of my weakest spots, and a summer full of unknowns, I've found myself, well... not being myself.  sure, i've always been a worrier.  i was the friend that always said "what if we get in trouble?" or "i don't think our parents would be happy..."  i always analyze, make lists, but recently i've found myself almost paralyzed by the decisions in front of me.  with all of these up-coming decisions, i've been gripped by my anxiety.  my chest hurts, my stomach threatens to return my lunch, and all i want to do is curl up and go back to bed where no decisions need to be made. or just cry.  that usually happens too.  i've been trying to handle all of this messy life stuff on my own, and frankly it's just. not. working.  i selfishly pushed God out of my everyday tasks and decisions thinking "i can totally handle this" and "God doesn't care what color my table linens are at my wedding reception."  well i (clearly) can't handle it on my own. God might not exactly care about my color choices, but he does care for me.  while all of these decisions are mine to make, i do have a God who cares for me and wants the best for me. he wants to steady my heart, if only i learn to trust that he is in control. 

soaking up the sun

well.... i've been a little behind the 8 ball with wedding plans lately... thank you, nursing school.  

finally, we found a weekend to meet up with our wedding photographer to do a little engagement session :)  it was a gorgeous winter day in annapolis, and the only day with sun in about a week.  we were so blessed with the weather!  here are some of my favorites: 

photo dump anyone??

 (the 16 is because our wedding is on the 16th. har har)

thank you, Kyle for capturing these photos :) 

happy weekend, lovelies! 

friday letters.

hey guys!  so i've been in a major blogging funk (have i ever not been in one, is the real question , i think) and i'm gonna try some link-ups through out the week, maybe to hold me accountable?  and to hang out with some other lovely blogging ladies :)
so... here goes nothin!

dear fiance: yesterday we sat together in silence doing work in starbucks, yet somehow i loved the time we had together.  stealing glances at your handsome self intently writing e-mails made my heart flutter and made studying cardiac disorders not so terrifying.  dear weather: please, please warm up!!  or at least stop being windy.  I really hate the wind.  (but you already know that)  dear  mom:  have a great weekend away with your crazy girlfriends!  so glad you can get away and stop working every once in a while.  dear wedding:  I CANT WAIT FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm linking up with ashley over at the sweet season  she's so sweet, and preganant, and has the cutest little pup.